Worthy

The only problem when you know how worthy you are is that 

You know what you deserve. 

You know who is worth your heart. 

You know who is worth your love. 

It does not mean 

They want the same from you. 

It does not mean their heart belong somewhere else. 

It does not mean that their heart is being taken care of. 

It does not mean much. 

It was easy when I had no idea I was worth. 

The ones who are worth……are not seeking to be valued.

Melancholy I invoke you again

Please flourish again

You are my best state

Where I feel and I do not. 

Where I refrain 

Where my sexual needs 

Are not my heart needs 

So I can stop looking for love

So It can be filled by touch and lust

Even tho is just an illusion 

It feels good when 

I am not 

When I become unaware of my nature

I need to stop 

Because happiness makes me want more

And I become weak

Become

I feel for that one that I want 

Is not a two way 

Maybe it is

But they do not want to let go

I might be here

I shall stop now.