Baking

I am baking
And I'm thinking about you
And I'm thinking about me
And I'm thinking about this.
I'm in a committed relationship with myself since a few years already.
It was very hard to develop it because I think that loving myself was hard to do.
And I'm finally coming to terms that working in yourself is a great investment of your time and your will.
But also I have learned and come to terms that this relationship with me is a never ending cycle that need to be prioritized because in order to love someone else....yes, I have to love myself.
But is hard. Because I want you.
And I desire you.
And I still think of you in my mornings and in my nights.
I think on how much happiness will give me to try to make you happy and please you and make love to you and with you.
And how awesome could be being equals together.
But......life so many times doesn't give us what we want but what we need.

For now I'm still emotional invested with you....because unfortunately you are fucking worth it.....but it seems that is very unfortunate that we are both not standing in the same universe for now.
But I do have feelings for you.
And maybe will always have.
We will be living in a city of millions and in this concrete jungle so even if I just see you once at year or in the subway as two random people who smile at each other...my heart will probably beat for you a little bit.
This my nature. I am.
I just finished baking.
So

Baking

Warmth,

Orlando