We have to face our fears in order to change. If we never know what are we afraid of we will never be able to face the things that are holding us from growing.
I am not afraid of death, I am afraid that the people who loves me is sad or are suffering because of me. I am that type of people who worries and care more for his family, his friends and his beloved ones than for him.
My biggest fear is nothing stupid, my biggest fear is to know someone is that I love is sad and that freaks me out to a point that I would do almost anything for them, leaving what I want and my happiness behind.

I want to be my priority. I feel like if I have been stuck and in hold for about 2 years, and I want to stop and face my fear and change.

It is probably one of the hardest things that I have ever tried to do. I need to be selfish for a while and make my dreams and my goals my number one thing in life. I have to stop putting people before me. I keep worrying too much and letting people to manipulate me with their feelings and I let myself to be manipulated even I know that I have to stop feeling so bad about people´s situation. I am too emphatetic sometimes.

I know who I want, I know my big goals, I have to clear my mind about some of them. But the people I love need to really understand that I have my life, that I am the owner of it and that I have to make my own decisions. It is hard for me to try to make them understand that not all my decisions will be the decisions they would have taken, but still are my decisions, that is my life!

Build a new life is not easy, but sometimes it is even harder when the ones you love try to give you advice but expect you to do what they want.

It is my life, and I need to be stronger. This is a struggle, but something needs to be done.