I can't describe it.
And I surely don't think I'm a bad person or friend.
In fact I consider myself, as a person trying to make things good and being a loyal and real friend.
Friends are a blessing I can say and assure that.
I have friends that are more like family that what my sister is to me.
Friends who I can give everything I do it, but is the way I am.
I like to do it, to be like that and never do it with any other purpose.
But is really hard when a friend can't keep a promise that you know you friend CAN acomplish.
Is fucking hard and painful when you start to not trust your beloved ones anymore.
After all you have gone through years and with the wrong people.
Just when you thought you found your real ones you get dissapointed once more.
I wonder sometimes if this is a curse, or if I have to die and be reborned again.
But really there are sometimes that I can get mad, but something that can really bother me and
forget my inner peace is deception and sadness from dissapointment.
We learn, and the stupid naive person that we used to be in the past will always learn, and will always remember.
You have to remember everything but don't hold resentment you have to forgive.
You have to forgive, but it doesn't mean that you will trust.
You have to be the same good friend, but with limits.
You always learn.
People will make shits in your life, very often or eventually.
And to be honest, I do prefer to know that the one who fucked up a moment in my life was my friend than someone that I don't fucking know.
And is better to fight with your friend than fighting with someone who isn't worth it, eventually you will forgive just if the friendship is that worth it.
Yes, this is only written to let it out.
I need it....... I fucking need it.
Thanks to Anne Frank I understood something that simplified all my life so I can feel relief or just think about things more and make a conclusion for them:
“Paper is more patient than man.”
I guess in this case it would be: "Blogs are more patient than man".
Remember always to breath.
(Just random writing to feel better)
